Sudbury This Weekend!!!  (Megans Coming With.)

WHOOT SHOPPING!:) CLOTHES!!!

Might see michael:)

Everyone Leaves. Get over it.

Hey there!.. So i'm just sitting here in communications. Writign emails when i should be doing my hoemwork.. that i have so much of.. im gonna liek drown in it.. hhaa.. so my wekend is pretty damn busy for once haha.. big surprise.. not sure exactly hwo its gonan work but i'll figure it out..  So i missed a quiz today in marketing and i toatlly failed my media test.. my scholl stuff is completely going down hill. bah i dont know what i'm gonna do.. haha.. so i got a hair cut.. got bangs now it looks soo hott!:P Lately i've been sick alot.. haha.. and i 've been goign for liek 6 hour wlaks everyday .. really been workign out... been sitting at the park on the swings alot.. a few weeks ago i slept at nets place it was fun we just got drunk and listened to some tunes went over the good ol'past.. yup.. and then i've been going to emgans every lunch lately.. excpet to day i hug out with miek and them.. Me and meagsn went swimmign at the beach alot lately hahaha:P were dumb.. and i almosyt ate a god damn spider ugh!!! it feask me rigth out.. totally nasty shit right there:P.. 

thinsg in the guy world are same old confusing problemed bullshit ahah:P.. i am goign to see prom night tonight i cant wait its gonna be aweosme.. well i shoudl probably get going i will post later:)Eww parenting is next.. yay:(

What am I doing with my life? How is this a life at all? Why do I keep believing the pain will go away. It will never go away. All it does is slowly fade away and hide until one day it will return again. It is never truly gone it’s always with me. Every move, every breath brings me that much closer to an undeniable fate. Maybe this just isn’t my scene. Maybe my future is meant to be spent alone. No matter what I do or say everyone leaves. Sooner or later I will be joining them and I will leave someone behind. How can people live like this. There is pain everywhere you go. I don’t want to be apart of this world, this fate. I will find my escape. I must.

Hey there all:) What is up? haha... So0o0o0o0o.... tommorow im supposed to go to the movies with des and david.. shall be interesting. I dont really have anything to write lol.. my day hes been pretty regular and boring. Hmph.. marketign next how homosexual.

So i am seriously ready to stab something or someone preferably myself. I am so very irritated today i would liek to scream. I'm hungry, tired, i want to know my marks, i have so much homework and im so pissed off at having substitutes because everytime i get one my mark in that class seems to drop like 10 % in a fuckign week. I don't even want to know how much my mark is gonna drop in parenting .. We've had that sub for 2 weeks now and when it comes to marking our work shes a dumb bimbo. Gah just kill me. 

More stressfulness is that i really want to get a job btu have to wait for my damn bc which isnt here yet so that i can get a SIN number and then make a resume to get a job. how horrible is that, then i really need to get the money and study for a drivers liscense test. I have so much on my plate rigth now i just dont knwo what to do.


In other "ness" me and brayden are putting our money toegther to get al rockband for his b-day/x-mas gift. then i am also savign my money and im goign to sudz soon with des and al. Thwen after that i ahev to save my mooney for braydens b-day/x-mas present. Theer is so much i want to buy myself also and i will never be able to so much stuff just keeps comgin up... 

Also my steopdad is probably moving to suds and gettiing a job there btu im staying here. :) alone:(.. lol its gonna be very depressing. oh'well thougt we will eb making ore moeny at least.

p.s. my marks

communications= 77%
Parenting = ???
Marketing=  went from an 86% to a 73% in a week
media= 80%.    <---how depressing is that. It's the one class i've worked my ass off in. I personally beleive it shoudl be higher

Hey there all, So last night i was super tired from doing my community hours and stuff... I had to give away free cat and dog food away. May not sound like much but carryign those heavy boxes really is a good workout. We had to carry them all out and then half of them back in and then at the end we had to do that all over again. Tonight i'm in that stupid fashion show. I'm not looking forward to it because im so shy and all the other girls my age i don't associate with such as Natasha Penn, Shanasy?, Calita?, Danika, and Dixie. But Emily will be theer watching so it won't be as weird. Hmm...I stil have to find an outift and such... Anywho i think i did well on my test in marketign yesterday... Umm i still haev a lot of homework i need to get done oevr the weekend. Tommorow night after community hours i;m supposed to go to davids to hang out with amy and them... Not really sure exactly whats going on that night but whateva. 

So i don't have very much to say so ill tty'all later. Byebye

hello all So i'm now in recovery from the worst flu iv'e ever had. It was quite horrible but lets not talk about that. So does anybody ever kind of get tired of doing the same thing everyday? Iv'e had a lot of time lounging around at home sick just thinking about everything. Everyday is like the same routine over and over again repeatedly. It also got me realizing how much people rub off on another. Not only do we pass on our sickness's but our hobbies, sayings, things like that. Doesn't anyoen ever just want to be original. I used to be so original and then now it's all gone. Everything that made me original has lost its pizazz because everyone can do it now.. Not only can they do what i once did but now they do it better. No matter how hard i try i am always coming in last. It doesn't seem to matter what anybody tells me anymore because it still feels the same. I just want to know what i can do that others cant? I'm used to livign my life in a way that it was my own thing but with everything its become impossible. I guess now im just "amber" plain amber with no goals, no hobbies, just a big web of mistakes.