Marketing -
tracking sheet thing
Media -
Big advertisement thing and worksheet on it
Then a presentation on it.
Ad analysis
Communictaions-
Animation?thing
Parenting-
2 baby sickness's write up thing
Present it
questions
Test on wednesday
Takign fake baby next friday
Then big question assignment thing on that
Then a baby book
Death.. not to mention im going to sudbury this saturday and sunday and then the next weekend i take the baby otu and my mom and dad ar visiting and i have to work at 4:00 am all week next week.
This is soo death:(
- Location:2oom 110
- Mood:
aggravated - Music:im not gonna write you a love song
Friends = Hah. same old bitches they've always been (go figure)
Boys = They Suck!
Family = Gah, Totally irritating
But all in all i can't complain I've accepted things. some people will treat you like shit and backstab you for no reason at all. Just gotta learn to live with it and move on. Family , dissapointment now that was always something i've been used to. Boys i don't even know anymore lol. Things in life are always gonna be complicated and i guess i can learn to deal with that. Once i get to leave this town i'll be all set. It's not like the people here really matter i mean once im gone i'm like never gonna see them again. So why waste my time? I used to be so upset about this kinda stuff because well i wanted to grow up and be able to tell my kids how great life was in highschool, the parties, the boys, the drama. I wanted to be able to look back and say even with all the bad stuff they were the happiest days of my life. That's never gonna happen, Not in this life time anyway. Ever since i was little i was drawn to fairy tales, i blame my parents and Disney. haha. They come up with all this bullshit baout happy endings and it conditions you, It's a stupid constructed reality. Life doesn't work that way, i wish it did. I've learned that all fairy tales tell a lie. So i've given up on them i've decided instead of being surprised by diassapointment i'm gonna take it head on, at least that way i believe in something real, something that is there, No more dreaming of my perfect fantasy. So now im just gonna have to put my fake smile on so my family still believes im the old me, what they dont know will never hurt them, right?
- Location:Room 210
- Mood:
calm - Music:Falling Down -scarlett johansson
I whisper goodbyes:
The wolf and the lion
have asked me to play
'though she told me not to,
I went anyway
A pile of matches,
the truth at my feet,
The cream in my tea
Spells out something to me
and they say that I'll heal by the day
But the message I give
kills off all will to live
I'm afraid that I'm losing my way
Burning in heaven,
my destiny lies,
When she read my stars,
She didn't mention that night.
I loved you my Bambi,
I don't want to leave,
- Location:room 113
- Mood:
content - Music:sugarcult- memory
Everyone Leaves. Get over it.
- Location:room 113
- Mood:
sad - Music:sugarcult - pretty girl
Hey there!.. So i'm just sitting here in communications. Writign emails when i should be doing my hoemwork.. that i have so much of.. im gonna liek drown in it.. hhaa.. so my wekend is pretty damn busy for once haha.. big surprise.. not sure exactly hwo its gonan work but i'll figure it out.. So i missed a quiz today in marketing and i toatlly failed my media test.. my scholl stuff is completely going down hill. bah i dont know what i'm gonna do.. haha.. so i got a hair cut.. got bangs now it looks soo hott!:P Lately i've been sick alot.. haha.. and i 've been goign for liek 6 hour wlaks everyday .. really been workign out... been sitting at the park on the swings alot.. a few weeks ago i slept at nets place it was fun we just got drunk and listened to some tunes went over the good ol'past.. yup.. and then i've been going to emgans every lunch lately.. excpet to day i hug out with miek and them.. Me and meagsn went swimmign at the beach alot lately hahaha:P were dumb.. and i almosyt ate a god damn spider ugh!!! it feask me rigth out.. totally nasty shit right there:P..
thinsg in the guy world are same old confusing problemed bullshit ahah:P.. i am goign to see prom night tonight i cant wait its gonna be aweosme.. well i shoudl probably get going i will post later:)Eww parenting is next.. yay:(
- Location:room 113
- Mood:
bouncy - Music:ATC- Around the world.
- Location:room 113
- Mood:
confused - Music:Never will i break - 3 doors down
What am I doing with my life? How is this a life at all? Why do I keep believing the pain will go away. It will never go away. All it does is slowly fade away and hide until one day it will return again. It is never truly gone it’s always with me. Every move, every breath brings me that much closer to an undeniable fate. Maybe this just isn’t my scene. Maybe my future is meant to be spent alone. No matter what I do or say everyone leaves. Sooner or later I will be joining them and I will leave someone behind. How can people live like this. There is pain everywhere you go. I don’t want to be apart of this world, this fate. I will find my escape. I must.
- Location:room113
- Mood:
uncomfortable - Music:Jordin Sparks-no air
Hey there all:) What is up? haha... So0o0o0o0o.... tommorow im supposed to go to the movies with des and david.. shall be interesting. I dont really have anything to write lol.. my day hes been pretty regular and boring. Hmph.. marketign next how homosexual.
- Location:room 210
- Mood:
frustrated - Music:Teenagers- My chemical romance
So i am seriously ready to stab something or someone preferably myself. I am so very irritated today i would liek to scream. I'm hungry, tired, i want to know my marks, i have so much homework and im so pissed off at having substitutes because everytime i get one my mark in that class seems to drop like 10 % in a fuckign week. I don't even want to know how much my mark is gonna drop in parenting .. We've had that sub for 2 weeks now and when it comes to marking our work shes a dumb bimbo. Gah just kill me.
More stressfulness is that i really want to get a job btu have to wait for my damn bc which isnt here yet so that i can get a SIN number and then make a resume to get a job. how horrible is that, then i really need to get the money and study for a drivers liscense test. I have so much on my plate rigth now i just dont knwo what to do.
In other "ness" me and brayden are putting our money toegther to get al rockband for his b-day/x-mas gift. then i am also savign my money and im goign to sudz soon with des and al. Thwen after that i ahev to save my mooney for braydens b-day/x-mas present. Theer is so much i want to buy myself also and i will never be able to so much stuff just keeps comgin up...
Also my steopdad is probably moving to suds and gettiing a job there btu im staying here. :) alone:(.. lol its gonna be very depressing. oh'well thougt we will eb making ore moeny at least.
p.s. my marks
communications= 77%
Parenting = ???
Marketing= went from an 86% to a 73% in a week
media= 80%. <---how depressing is that. It's the one class i've worked my ass off in. I personally beleive it shoudl be higher
- Location:room 210
- Mood:
annoyed - Music:jordans gay ass music
To keep the sky from swallowing me up
And all I ever needed was someone to come around
And tell me that I suffered long enough
So take me away
Find me a home
Im on my way
Well all I ever wanted was a place to store my faith
I thought that I could keep it locked away
It burns my eyes to look at him
And see the truth inside
And so Ive turned my broken face away
- Location:room 113
- Mood:
tired - Music:bonnie mckee -marble
As I sit here I am nothing but an empty shell. There’s this hollow place deep inside me that still stays there incomplete. The feeling that once was there is now missing. This feeling I have follows me everywhere. The only way I feel I have control of my life is by running away when things get tough, to my safe place. It’s not much of one, but it will do for now.
- Location:room 113
- Mood:
calm - Music:Bonnie Mckee- I Hold Her
- Location:room 113
- Mood:
pissed off - Music:none
p.s. I've found out that im stuck in school for an extra year if i want to be a psychologist. Its pretty much my only option though bexcasue i dont liek anything else and im nto exactly giod at anything.:(.. but yeah.. its cool but shitty at the same time.Well Byebye all.:)
he says he looks in the mirror
and he can't tell anymore
who he really is and who they believe him to be
and he says he walks a thin line
between what is and what could be
and he's getting closer
to something he can't understand
cause there's a crack in his plastic crown
and his throne of ice is melting
he climbed his ladder
there was nothing there
now it's a long way down
cause on and on and on he goes
dancing on the grave
of what he thought was still alive
and on and on and on he goes
dancing in mansions made of twigs
and castles made of sand
he says his head is filled with
cartoons and fairy tales
and he's trapped inside a dungeon of dolls
with smiles on their faces
he's built a pretty cage
his show's on a beautiful stage
with candy coated prison bars
and chains that look like jewelry
- Location:room 210
- Mood:
amused - Music:Phil collins-In the air tonight
Hey there all, So last night i was super tired from doing my community hours and stuff... I had to give away free cat and dog food away. May not sound like much but carryign those heavy boxes really is a good workout. We had to carry them all out and then half of them back in and then at the end we had to do that all over again. Tonight i'm in that stupid fashion show. I'm not looking forward to it because im so shy and all the other girls my age i don't associate with such as Natasha Penn, Shanasy?, Calita?, Danika, and Dixie. But Emily will be theer watching so it won't be as weird. Hmm...I stil have to find an outift and such... Anywho i think i did well on my test in marketign yesterday... Umm i still haev a lot of homework i need to get done oevr the weekend. Tommorow night after community hours i;m supposed to go to davids to hang out with amy and them... Not really sure exactly whats going on that night but whateva.
So i don't have very much to say so ill tty'all later. Byebye
- Location:Room 210
- Mood:
scared - Music:None
Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don't feed me violence
just run with me through rows of speeding cars.
The papercuts the cheating lovers
The coffee's never strong enough
i know you think it's more than just bad luck
Sleeping pills know sleeping dogs lie
never far enough away
Glistening in the cold sweat of guilt
I've watched you slowly winding down for years
You can't keep on like this...
now's a bad a time as any
There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't kill yourself
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah
it's ok by me..
it's ok by me..
it's ok by me..it was a long time ago
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- Location:Room 113
- Mood:
moody - Music:Anger Cage - Course Of Nature
Hmm so it's lunch soon.. I'm not quite sure what i'm doing i'd liek to just go to the library and work you know. But sometiems im just not in that work ahbit mood. I barely ever am.. It's liek i have to start and be half done an assignment and then i'm very focused on finishign all of my work. We just got this huge ass assingment for parenting it shall be the reason for my death. haha.
Soo anyway.. Umm things are giogn pretty well these days:). My mom and my dad were in a car accident whoch is kinda depressing but all is godo they lived and veerything.. Except my dad has somehtign life threatening going on which is very sad making. But other than that im feelign pretty okay these days. Last night me and brayden went to his ploace for a bit and then went to my hsoue and watched soem t.v. and stuff. One tree Hill wa son and i was soo pumped it wasnt what i expected from teh commercail but it was still good. I hate peyton soo much and i loved lindsay but i still kinda hpe that him and peyton get together. Just because it's an epic lovestory and shit and they are just its cute when its soebody who has so much highscholl history with ... hemph..
Then again happy endings never work:@ bitches, haha,... anyway.. i hate that nanny bitch im gonna kill her:@. lmao... Hmm.. anywhoozyl... Class is over in 15minutes. i have a four page assignment thing due soon for cumminications whichs reallly freakign sucjks i am like drwonign in my homwork. I hope that after lunch me des,amy and brayden get our fuckign seats for media .. god that class pisses me off. and i hat emrs.miller she bitches at me 24/7 in class its soo irritatiing liek shut up. hha. she's very controllign and abotu hrself. haha.:@:@.Well then i guess i'm gonna get goign i dont really have nything else much to say.. soo ttyl.
- Location:Room 113
- Mood:
devious - Music:Pretty Girl - Sugarcult
I got my 3 community hours apprioved and i get to get some more on thursayd which is cool. :) Me and brayden are doing ebtter from what i can tell . And i loves him. yupp. Hmm... The other night i slept at des's house. WE stayed up pretty late. Hmm... Well i don't really have much else to say so beybye.
- Location:room 113
- Mood:
aggravated - Music:none
- Location:room 210
- Mood:
anxious
hello all So i'm now in recovery from the worst flu iv'e ever had. It was quite horrible but lets not talk about that. So does anybody ever kind of get tired of doing the same thing everyday? Iv'e had a lot of time lounging around at home sick just thinking about everything. Everyday is like the same routine over and over again repeatedly. It also got me realizing how much people rub off on another. Not only do we pass on our sickness's but our hobbies, sayings, things like that. Doesn't anyoen ever just want to be original. I used to be so original and then now it's all gone. Everything that made me original has lost its pizazz because everyone can do it now.. Not only can they do what i once did but now they do it better. No matter how hard i try i am always coming in last. It doesn't seem to matter what anybody tells me anymore because it still feels the same. I just want to know what i can do that others cant? I'm used to livign my life in a way that it was my own thing but with everything its become impossible. I guess now im just "amber" plain amber with no goals, no hobbies, just a big web of mistakes.
- Location:room 113
- Mood:
gloomy - Music:Fat- Axel Bust vs. Locana
